Before I was half way there, the original robber came after me as another gun toting thug still threatened my husband. Thankfully, the neighbors opened their door.
And then the IFs..."If only" we had gotten home just a few minutes earlier or later, our paths would not have crossed. "If only" this, "If only" that, "If only......"
And the number 40... Jesus went out into the desert for 40 days, like the period of 40 days in Lent and the 40 YEARS that all 3 robbers were sentenced with before they are ever eligible for parole.
This time of year brings unfailing hurt...The pain and sorrow flood back, like the rivers being filled with the melting snow from the mountains. Though I am stronger now capable of holding the water, I am not invincible or immune to the reminders and sudden floods. Yet despite all of this, joy remains rooted in my soul, deeper than any human weakness on the surface. I am ever mindful of the Cross, the instrument of our salvation. I am in debt this one true Cross that beholds our Savior, who continues to deliver me from darkness.
I am fasting, praying and almsgiving this year, dedicated to this journey. As Christians, our journeys are never easy. None of us are spared. But how do we handle our journeys and what do we do with them to bare fruit and love? That's the ultimate question that I still ponder......
Each year, I climb Calvary Hill. It has become a healing pilgrimage and a time of spiritual renewal.
But we must journey long and hard to get there...Like the old adage: "No pain, no gain." Lent is the beginning of another opportunity to journey closer to that Cross, closer to pure love. Though I am certainly not good at it, I'm picking mine up once again.
This time I am not clinging to the Cross because I was unexpectedly thrown up against it, finding myself there begrudgingly. This Lent it is my choice, knowing that my very life and death depend upon it. Clinging to the Cross for dear life has new meaning now. I am deeply in love with a Savior who I know, with certain, I cannot live without.