Listen to God's voice at the foot of the crucifix." ~St. Gaspar del Bufaro~

Sunday, April 1, 2012

We've Come A Long Way Baby!

It is finished.
This day has passed.
Another death anniversary under our belts.

A Father who wasn't to be Dad for very long.
The waters of loss run deep into the well of our souls.
We live the aftermath of tragedy and remember suffering...It's what we do every Holy Week. 
We never stop missing, we never stop loving.  We are humbled by life that is fragile. Hope is real.  This is the beauty of loss.
Like the theme song of this blog, we lay our burdens down at the foot of the Cross.
He feels our pain and wipes our tears until we fly home.

We've come a long way baby...18 years under our belt.
From the dungeon of loneliness and sorrow to the hills of hope, we have ascended from the grave only by His grace.
I never would have dreamed that this sorrow would yield such a glorious new dawn.
And yet, why wouldn't it?
I know better now.
The trek to Calvary is not a choice but a necessity.
It has brought us thus far.
It will carry us to the end.
As we roll back our stone,
A brush with Divinity sets us free.

Consider it all joy, my brothers, when you encounter various trials, for you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.  And let perseverance be perfect, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
~1 James 2-4~

Do not be afraid of anything that you are going to suffer.  Indeed the devil will throw some of you into prison, that you may be tested, and you will face an ordeal.  Remain faithful until death, and I will give you the crown of life.
~Revelation 2:10~
"He is stretched out upon a Cross who by his word stretched out the heavens."
~St. Amphilochius of Iconium~

These have been a few of the readings in the Magnificat last week as I moved towards Chris' death anniversary, today.  They are exactly what I needed to hear as this day was extremely emotional for me.  I think it's because I'm starting to prepare my heart for this first son to go to college...We've come a long way baby!  And yet there's more heart ache to come when he moves away this summer.  I'm praying really hard for peace.  

With that being said, Holy Week is here and that means Good News awaits us at the end of the week and beyond my aching heart.  Beyond the horror, there are Hallelujah's to be hailed and heaven to be hoped for.  Like salve for our wounds, through His, Easter always arrives.


  1. yes, through His. You have indeed come so far, and only you and your Son and Christ know its depths. What beautiful pictures of your two -- My stomach actually ached when I saw the second photo -- such a beautiful photo of Mother and son and yet I could sense there was much grief there in your heart. You have a beautiful beautiful cross that you are carrying, Tiffany. ((so sorry you've been having a hard time commenting on my blog. I thought I removed all the extra steps, like typing in the verification word. don't know what my site is doing ). God bless you and your son and your family for traveling another year of loss and hope, always hope!! Blessed Holy Week.

  2. Thank you for being my single comment, Gardenia! You are always so supportive and kind. Have a blessed Easter my friend:)

  3. Hi Tiffany,

    Life certainly changes at a quick pace and it's never as we expect. I can't imagine losing a husband at such a young age with a little boy to take care of. Then God leads you to another loving Godly man who embraces you both as his family and you're blessed with more children. No doubt your cross has been burdensome at times, but your belief in leaving the pain and suffering at the foot of the cross has blessed both you, your family and everyone you meet. Even on the blog-o-sphere! May God shower down his graces and blessings on you and your family.

  4. Tiffany, this is such a beautiful post, I have been praying for you as I knew this day was drawing near. I would imagine that this year is even more so as you are preparing for yet another big change in your family. Selfishly, sometimes I wish my kids never had to grow up! It seems like you and your son have a beautiful relationship that will only blossom further as he spreads his wings. God Bless You!

  5. Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers, Jen...much appreciated! It's going to be a tough summer but I know God's love and grace will prevail, through the farewell tears!


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