Sunday, May 15, 2011
Bleating Like A Sheep
My husband has been on duty at the firestation for days on end now. Normally I can handle his absence pretty well. But this particular weekend, I'm just darned tired. I miss him, I miss our family unity on the weekends, especially at Mass. I miss family dinners and grow weary of taking care of family business alone.
I could go on and on but I will refrain from too much whining. Do you ever just have bad days? I have been praying all weekend for God's abundant grace to just rain down on me. I sat in Mass trying to listen to the readings, despite my 3 year old's incessant loud whispers. How fitting that it is Good Shepherd's Sunday because I sure felt like one big sheep! I just sat there quietly bleating in the pew as I knew that I had strayed into the darkness of the night, feeling sorry for myself as I had scattered from the fold in my mind.
Suddenly the lines of the First Reading grabbed my heart like a shepherd's crook...
"Beloved: If you are patient when you suffer for doing what is good, this is a grace from God. For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example that you should follow in his footsteps." And then the last line: "For you had gone astray like sheep, but you have now returned to the shepherd and guardian of your souls."~1 Peter 2:20-25~
How's that for being thrown back into the sheepfold?
Praise God for graces received as my heart was renewed by the Mass.
Even though this time and place still holds its challenges, I know my Shepherd is prodding me a long, poking me with His staff and guiding me to stay close, ever mindful of the temptation to stray. In my helpless bleating, there is no better place to surrender than the sheepfold. There is no place like home, pressed up against my Master like one of his sheep that has been rescued. I am safe and secure at His feet, those same feet that were nailed to the Cross on my behalf and that of the whole world.
I gave up the temptation to serve chicken nuggets for dinner and will joyfully honor the Good Shepherd with the same dinner that we had last year. See that post and feel free to copy!
Good Shepherd's Pie
Field of Greens Salad
Shepherd's Staff Breadsticks
"Thus says the Lord God: I myself will look after and tend my sheep. As a shepherd tends his flock when he finds himself among his scattered sheep, so will I tend my sheep. I will rescue them from every place where they were scattered when it was cloudy and dark."~Ezekiel 34: 11