It all began after reading these articles that I posted on the 7th day of Christmas. I began to reflect and ask myself what my personal goals were for this New Year...but I came up with no immediate answers?
And then I read this quote that described how I felt:
"The New Year notion of beginning again is built into us and God made us this way so that we would never stop longing for Him."
~Fr. James M. Sullivan~
The funny thing is that when I looked back at my marching orders for the 2011/12 school year, lest I be surprised, it was a similar message. How quickly I had forgotten what God wanted of me. Yet somehow, the deepest part of me must have known as my heart gushed out in prayer before Him. My soul remembered even if I didn't:) It is apparent that I need to work on the surrender of all of me, all of the time...Not just "for a time" and forget about it!
Silly me, God doesn't want to reinvent the wheel every darned time, does He? He just wants us to listen the first time! How many times a day do I scold my own children for not listening and here I am with the plank in my eye. But God is always gracious and patient and merciful with His little children, maybe I should take heed there as well;)
Today, through my surrender, I was "reminded" to let go of my big ideas, to adopt a spirit of surrender and be content to be weak. (Again) Though it sounds like an uncomfortable place to be, it's really quite the opposite. I am free when I surrender and only when I surrender am I free. God, in turn, provided immediate opportunities for me to test this new freedom:) Yes, there are miracles all around us waiting to happen, if only we just stop to listen, let go and let God.
It has been a beautiful week of surrender and for this, I am grateful. What else does this year hold, I wonder? Whatever it is, I pray that it includes more of Him for He is the only answer to my heart's desire and that of all created human beings as well. I pray that anyone who reads this might be blessed with the following prayer in this promising New Year!